‘American Idol’ David Archuleta makes a heartbreaking confession

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‘American Idol’ season 7 runner-up David Archuleta has given away in one new interview with People how much he struggled to come out as a member of the LGBTQ community, to the point where he had suicidal thoughts and almost had a nervous breakdown.


David Archuleta said he had panic attacks and suicidal thoughts before coming out publicly

Archuleta has been open about his coming out process for the last year and a half, Tell Variety in a 2021 interview that it started during his time on American Idol, even if he didn’t know exactly what was going on in his mind at the time. He also later said that when he admitted to himself that he was bisexual, he prayed for God to take that away, telling Variety he would pray things like, “God, please take this away from me.” If you are there and you really have a plan for me then please change me. I know you can change things. You could turn water into wine! You can change me.”

Now, in a new interview with People, Archuleta opened up about being engaged to a woman in 2021 and having a panic attack at dinner thinking about getting intimate with her.

“I was panicking. I haven’t moved for 30 minutes. I thought about being her partner and being intimate. She said, “What the hell is going on?” I said, ‘I just know I can’t be near you. I need three weeks. I will work really hard. I’m driving too fast I’ll pray,'” the singer said, adding, “I had anxiety attacks when I was around her because you’re trying to force an intimacy with someone that you can’t experience. I didn’t want to accept that I was into boys.”

He came out publicly in June 2021, but is struggling with a crisis of faith. Archuleta grew up a devout member of the Church of Latter-day Saints, and he told People that when he was at his lowest point, he thought “it would be a better choice to just quit [his] Life.”

He also said he had thoughts like, “God would probably forgive me if I ended my life because it’s better than what I could become, which is if I’m gay or LGBT.”

Archuleta said he grew up thinking that being gay was just as “evil” as “murdering someone,” that’s how bad growing up was. But no matter how difficult [he] tried to marry a girl, it wasn’t right,” the singer said of his three broken engagements, all to women.

He also knows “it was tough” for the women, adding, “I’m sure other people who have been in that situation can relate to that. People who are queer who have tried to get married just to do the ‘right thing’ isn’t a very good thing in the end, and it’s not very healthy for either party in the relationship.”


Archuleta takes a break from church and embraces who he is

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I thought the world would end if I did and lose everyone I loved, including myself who comes from a religiously conservative background to which I have always been very devoted. I finally had to stop worrying about what everyone else would think.

♬ Believe in me – David Archuleta

In the interview, he said that after accepting himself as a queer man, he tried talking to leaders in the church about it and it left him frustrated because they were inflexible.

“For my own sanity, I can’t keep putting myself in a place where it’s so contradictory when they say, ‘We love you so much, but at the same time you need to change who you are. Oh, can’t you? Then we will ignore this problem,'” Archuleta said.

He said his family was very supportive of his decision to leave the Church.

“I just had to step back, take a break from religion – because I didn’t want to weigh for my own sanity whether it was better for me to live and exist or whether it was better for me not to exist . It hurts me because my religion was everything to me,” Archuleta said.

Archuleta has also spoken openly about this whole journey on his social media. In September he has posted a video with subtitles on TikTok“Finally coming to terms with my sexuality and deciding to come out after all this inner turmoil,” while lip-syncing the lyrics, “Who cares what other people will say?”

In the post’s written caption, he added: “I thought the world would end if I did and lose everyone I loved including myself who comes from a religiously conservative background to which I have always been deeply devoted was. I finally had to stop worrying about what everyone else would think.”

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