Almost a year has passed since then Aaron CarterIt’s a shocking death, and it’s still incredibly difficult for his brother Nick Carter produce…
In an emotional new interview with E! News appears on Friday, December Back Street Boys The singer spoke about how difficult this time of year is as his family prepares for the first anniversary of the rapper’s death on November 5.
As Perezciouz readers know, the 34-year-old I want sweets The crooner was found dead in the bathtub of his home in Lancaster, California, last year. He accidentally drowned “due to the effects” of alprazolam, a generic form of Xanax, and difluoroethane, a flammable gas commonly found in cans of compressed air, the Los Angeles County coroner later confirmed.
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At the mention of his younger brother, Nick immediately burst into tears and said:
“It’s still unbelievable for me. When I think back and think about these holidays like Halloween, they’re like moments and milestones and times when I actually shared those memories with my brother and my family. Good times.”
The holidays are always so hard when you’ve lost a loved one, but the anniversary of a loved one’s death is even more emotional when it occurs at the exact same time. In the quiet moments, Nick finds it difficult to come to terms with death, he continued:
“Even though I share it with my kids and my family now, it’s still like that – there are times when I’m sitting alone or sitting in my car and I’m like, ‘This is incredible.’ How is that [happening]?’ So I’m still processing the whole situation and trying to make sense of it.”
The lack of resolution in the brothers’ troubled relationship seems to be tearing him up the most, he noted:
“No matter what he and I had been through in our lives, we were always able to make amends – we were always able to get back there. And now I can’t do it anymore and it hurts.”
Ugh. So hard.
The lack of resolution – especially after all the public ups and downs – undoubtedly complicates this loss. We’re so sorry he didn’t get that degree.
He spoke about his tears and added:
“I’m still processing it all, and sometimes you push it away because you don’t want to think about it, and then it comes out like this.” But I hope that one day I can understand everything. […] No matter what happens, he is my brother. I miss him, I love him. I hope one day it will all make sense and I’m working on it.”
These days, Nick is focused on his family, including being the best father possible to his three young children. pearl, SaoirseAnd Odinbut when the time is right he will have much more to say on the subject:
“One day I look forward to being able to really talk about everything and say the things I want to say. Again, I think there is a time and a place for this, and I look forward to it in the future. I really do.”
Wow. Hear his full reflection on the difficult milestone (below):
We’re sending so much love to Aaron’s family and friends right now, including his one-year-old son Princeton who just filed a wrongful death lawsuit against his mother, Melanie Martin. Anniversaries like this can bring up so many feelings. May Aaron continue to rest in peace…
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