Wynonna said it was “so confusing” because her mom sometimes had great days
In the interview with CBS Sunday Morning’s Lee Cowan, which is Wynonna’s first televised interview since losing her mother, the country music star was visibly emotional as she spoke about not knowing her mother was in such a bad place before she died.
“I didn’t know she was where she was when she finished it because she had episodes before and was getting better. That’s the challenge with mental illness. It’s really, really mysterious and I live in it is like, ‘Was there anything I should have been looking for or should have known?’ Not me. That’s why it’s such a shock,” Wynonna said.
Cowan responded that mental illness was “such a cruel disease,” to which Wynonna agreed.
“It is and people think it’s a character flaw and they don’t realize it’s this incredibly dark and light experience. She’s had incredibly amazing days in the middle of the dark days, that’s why it’s so confusing,” the singer said.
Cowan asked Wynonna if Your upcoming tour will be therapeutic for her healing process and she said she honestly doesn’t know yet.
“I have no idea. I swear to God I don’t know if it’s therapy this time,” the singer said. “I think it’s important to do it, if that makes sense. I feel like I.” I’ve got my orders and I know what they are and I’m going to show up. I don’t know if it’s going to be therapy. I’ll tell you that in November. I’ll literally tell you in November, ‘That was the greatest experience of my life ‘ or ‘That was a damn show’ because I’m going to give everything I’ve got.”
Wynonna had been touring with her mother before her mother’s death. She announced during her mother’s televised memorial service on CMT“Naomi Judd: A River of Time Celebration” that she would keep tour dates honoring her mother.
Over the years, Naomi Judd has been open about her mental health issues. tells “Today” in an interview in 2017 that she was “dangerously depressed” for two years.
“I haven’t gotten off my couch in two years,” Naomi said. “I was so depressed I couldn’t move … My husband (Larry Strickland) and my girlfriends and Ashley came over and I just went upstairs and locked the door to my bedroom … They became unable to move.”
She added: “We don’t make enough of the good neurochemicals in the brain. It’s an illness. It has nothing to do with our character… I was dangerously depressed.”
Wynonna also said saying goodbye was so hard
Wynonna also described the day it happened, saying she got the call about her mother and rushed to say goodbye to her at the hospital.
“I got the call and I walked over and I saw her and that was it. I said goodbye to her in the hospital and I closed her eyes and I kissed her forehead and that was it. And the next thing I know, I’m sitting here on the front porch, on the side porch… you know, just trying to figure out what’s next,” Judd tells Cowan.
The country star continued to say that she always tried to honor her mother and now that she’s gone Wynonna has let go of any arguments they had.
“I’ve honored her for as long as possible and she knows it. Once she said to me, “I’ll never forget it,” she took my hand and said, “My life is better because of you,” Wynonna recalled. “And that was a moment and those are the moments that I think about in my head. I don’t think so much about the time we’re empty. I think about the time she said that because those are the memories that keep coming through. I think when you lose your mother a lot of that crap goes away because it doesn’t matter anymore. It just doesn’t.”
She also told Cowan that sometimes she can feel her mother’s presence and it makes her miss her even more, saying: “I can feel her nudge me. And sometimes I laugh. And sometimes I’m like, ‘I really miss you. Why aren’t you here so we can argue?’”
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